There’s a fairly obscure (in this country, at least) John Cleese film calledClockwise that I really enjoy. Cleese plays — as he generally does — a man who’s wound too tight, and falls victim to his own intractable nature.

Draw from that what parallels you will.

At one point in the film, after a crushing string of frustrations and defeats, Cleese falls onto his back and cries out, “It’s not the despair. I can handle the despair. It’s the hope!”

The past several weeks have involved a frequent pattern of keeping my chin up… just to have it smashed. Holding my head high… making it a more obvious target. Taking bold steps… and getting kicked solidly in the balls.

Today was the green cherry on top of this creamy shit sundae. At every turn, something else ranging from mildly irritating to positively crushing. Faced with this kind of adversity, I find it helpful to pout and wallow in self-pity.

If only I could finally abandon all hope.

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Okay. Here are some things done on American soil in the name of Christianity. The Ku Klux Klan burned down black churches, raped women, murdered civil rights workers, murdered children and terrorized communities for over a century. The neo nazis all acted and continue to act in the name of white christian supremacy. The army of god fatally attacks abortion clinics and doctors across the country. The covenant, the sword and the arm of the lord targets local police and federal agents. The federal building in Oklahoma City. The attempted assassination of Ronald Reagan and the successful assassinations of Martin Luther King, John F. Kennedy, John Lennon, and Abraham Lincoln, all perpetrated by Christians. Miss Greer, we weren’t attacked by Muslims, we were attacked by sociopaths, and I for one would join you in protesting a community center for the criminally insane, but no one is suggesting building one. — WIll McAvoy (Jeff Daniels), The Newsroom